Well alot has happened in the past couple of months. 2012 has been an odd ball year but not so bad. Many good things have happened to me as well as bad. Life is all about ying and yang anyways. For one, things are going more or less how I pictured them in the beginning of January when I set my goals. I didn’t really have many because I want to put myself meaningful goals and not just your typical “I want to loose weight” resolution. (even though that is still one of my goals for life) Things have turned out good for the most part and I feel wiser as the days go by. I’m learning more about myself and who really matters to me. I guess a part of me likes to be liked by everyone and has a hard time saying no to people. That has definitely backstabbed me over and over when I would say yes Ill go or yes ill be there and I don’t think “hey i have to study or i have to do this”. I still struggle with that and I think I’m catching myself more often when I am asked to go somewhere so I can think about my answer. Aside from that, I feel like I’m ready for a new step/phase in my life. I have finally completed my AA (I have one more class left which im taking in the summer) and I see my days at Chilis finally ending. I feel old and like I’ve seen it all. But that’s not entirely always true, like Richard says you learn something new everyday. I haven’t really been pushing on MAC which is obviously my passion and I have actually been lazy with it. But sometimes having two jobs is a very clashing thing especially while going to school at the same time. But if I were to really go after MAC, it can be the start of a great future for me. The only thing though is you have to be on top of your game all the time, which means perfect hair, makeup, wardrobe, and bad ass sale skillz!! I think I can do it I just gotta push myself, something I need to restart again. If pushing myself has gotten me this far, then it means I gotta continue becuz a couple of years from now I will see the results again too. Im done with the first half of my education, thinking about the second half which is my BA and working on my makeup freelancing business. I couldn’t ask for more. But its definitely important to keep pushing myself everyday no matter what. HUSSEL TIL THE END!!(God ive gotten so gangsta thanks to chilis lol) As far as my Chilis crew, I’m gonna have to cut back on the going out/partying. As much as I love to do all that crazy fun stuff that makes for memorable nights, it’s time to take things easy and focus on my next few steps from here. I’m really looking forward to Cali and I want to work my butt off this month of May for that. I know God has lways been there for me even when I have forgotten about Him and havent exactly been a conscious person. But like Bruce said, you need a balance. Theres the left side of the brain and right side of the brain. you need both. ones emotion, ones order. to me that means live life and enjoy urself but be conscious and aware and dont let disorder ruin the gift of life and love. Como dice la abuela de Roman, cuando ay casa limpia ay orden y ay Dios…(well something like that) so this is what I will be focusing on. God, MY life, my career, my family, my bf, my closest friends and my job. thats it. <3

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